So, for the last month or so I’ve been seeing a girl. Let’s call her Summer. All in all, she’s been pretty good for me, with a couple of minor exceptions. She’s been a really good reflector of what’s really going on with me and inside me. I’ve noticed how often I overthink my actions. In the name of being ‘considerate’ I end up being insensitive. I’ve become a person that makes excuses instead of opportunities. And somehow or another, I’ve become that “charming” person again. That guy that tries to convince someone that I’m worth the time and effort, but only by showing the parts of myself that I want them to see, instead of all of my person faults and all.

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Being newly single again is difficult, but I’m taking it as much in stride as I can.  One of the things I’m doing in regards to this new singleness is I’ve started trying to get myself back in shape.  Well, I’ll be honest with you, it’s NOT easy.  I mean, I’ve modified my eating habits, quit smoking, get a reasonable amount of sleep…  All the good stuff I’m supposed to have been doing beforehand.  But to discipline myself enough to go outside and run, doing situps, pushups and other body-breakers to the point of collapse almost feels masochistic.

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