So, for the last month or so I’ve been seeing a girl. Let’s call her Summer. All in all, she’s been pretty good for me, with a couple of minor exceptions. She’s been a really good reflector of what’s really going on with me and inside me. I’ve noticed how often I overthink my actions. In the name of being ‘considerate’ I end up being insensitive. I’ve become a person that makes excuses instead of opportunities. And somehow or another, I’ve become that “charming” person again. That guy that tries to convince someone that I’m worth the time and effort, but only by showing the parts of myself that I want them to see, instead of all of my person faults and all.

At the same time, I’m able to see the good in myself as well, things I’d forgotten were there. I’m good at making people at ease. I take criticism well, provided that it’s constructive. I’m a loving person, and thrive in symbiotic affectionate relationships. I’m rational in my prioritizations, and I’m not afraid to fix something that I see as broken. I like that she doesn’t let me slack, but instead demands the best of me. She’s not afraid to grow herself. She’s self-concious, but not to the point of being crippled by it. She’s a proponent of ‘growth through advserity’. She’s seen things I’ve never seen, nor will likely see. She’s smart without being a know-it-all. Honestly, I could spend pages extolling her virtues, but I’m not really inclined to do that all in one shot here. All in all though, I think she’s someone that I could really care about.