This is more of an entry to my future self more than anything else.  The mind has a way of editing the past so that it doesn’t seem as bad as it was.  Sort of in the fashion that an oyster makes a pearl out of a grain of sand.  In this case, I’m referring to the fact that the number of times I’ve quit smoking is probably higher than the number of report cards I’ve gotten during my entire scholastic career.

Look, quitting is hard, made even moreso by the fact that I’m LIVING with someone that smokes, smokes FREQUENTLY, and has no real desire to smoke LESS.    It takes a lot of discipline, and analysis of the reasons for smoking.  So far, hunger, exhaustion, and boredom seem to rank at the top of the list, and each time I DID manage to quit, I do recall addressing one of the requisite issues.  Fact is, I plan on having quit again before the month closes out.  If it’s anything like the LAST 3 times I tried to quit, it’s going to be another challenging series of me talking to myself, and myself trying to talk back. 

Look, if you happen to pull this off again, make sure you read this before you get the urge to smoke “just one, because one won’t hurt”.  Don’t do it.  I repeat “DO NOT DO IT”.  Sure, one won’t hurt.  But it won’t just be one.  It’ll be one now, and then it’ll be “Well, that wasn’t so bad”, and next thing you know, you’re down $25 a week.  You’re about to SUFFER for this, don’t make it all in vain…. again!